Love is Confusion

Love is confusion. What more is there to say? I've yet to not be confounded by loving someone! But I endure. It's only confusion.

Time to Catch Up!

I'm planning on releasing a new addition to the Amanalii Stories. SO it would be the next part in the story. If you haven't read any of them, I suggest you go and read at least the first one, and the last one in no particular order. The first helps set the stage in a very minute details from the character's perspective. The latest just sets the stage for the next part. All the context is in between. Go read them if you have time.

I haven't figured out how to order them so it's in an easier format to go from the first to the next, but I'll try to tinker with that. Enjoy. I'll get the next part out, and straighten out the order everything appears as on here.

Glad You're Well..

I saw that new picture. Glad you're doing well. Thanks for (NOT) asking about me. I'm just fine. Keep playing your games. Someday you'll grow up, get well, and think about everyone else as well. I try to...
I won't rain on your parade anymore. Just enjoy.


See ya around. . .

The Dream's Right Here..

Here's the sweet and condensed can of milk for everyone: I want to build an MMO, but there's a lot of problems that go along with it.

1. High Cost. Just typing it in the main page of Google shows about $50M, plus server cost. Now, I don't know how accurate that is, or if that figure will remain relevant, but the takeaway is that it's millions of dollars initially, plus thousands of dollars monthly to support servers, if one aims to make a good MMO. Free made ones where you spend chump change or less on a server may not make a great game, but it's FREE, even if it takes decades to make.. NO.
2. Standards. Essentially, different people, different standards. Hard to make the perfect game when there's a lot of different wants and needs.
3. Saturation. This speaks for itself. There's at least half a dozen really well made MMOs out there, and a few dozen in total of varying qualities. 
4. Competition. This goes along with Saturation, but the idea is that I want to be as good as WoW or SWTOR or GW2, etc., etc.. Any bigger named titles, and certainly more to come.
5. Dedication. What makes anything really succeed in life? Dedication! I'm dedicated to this idea, because it's something I am passionate about. Not everyone is though, and it's harder to get people on board with MY idea alone. Doesn't mean I don't have any support of varying degrees, but I'm feeling very alone on journey to this.
6. Content. At least every week, if not daily, I refine or innovate or apply a new idea to my concept game. This makes for a lot of content to put in. But the more I add, the more work it'll take, and the more crowded the game could potentially become. 
7. Time and Experience. I've never made a single video game before. I've never programmed anything. But I have this vision, so even if I could lead a group of developers and programmers and techs into the fray of the gaming world, I lack the experience needed to guide everything properly. The other issue is time, which I lack to educate myself properly, since I'm applying myself to work to sustain myself, and to educate myself in geneds at college. Not too mention, the longer I have this put off, the less of a reality it may become. I'm battling the clock.
8. Vision. I touched on this point lightly in number 5, but the main idea is that a lot of games I feel lack a vision. They just make a game that has a direction, but where does it end, and what is it you really want from it? The second part to it is that from reading about a player-base insight is that there is a lot of cynicism for good MMOs. They lack the vision of seeing a new fresh idea come out anytime soon. That leads me to point three; I'm feeling alone. I have a good sister to support me, but I really have no one that believes in me, or they do so halfheartedly. When I ask my close friends if they'll want to play, they ALWAYS tell me they probably won't have time. I understand that it may be true, but for Heaven's sake you could at least say you'd try. Just ducking out and dodging my game based on what you may do in your future doesn't help me. I feel like it's being avoided like the plague, more than just a concern of time to be quite honest. So thanks a lot for having some genuine hope in my vision. 

All in all, it's not what I'm giving up on. If you're curious about it, ask me. If you want to support me in any way, please do so. I'm not asking for anything though. Just that you'd read and consider your dreams and goals. Mine's right here, so wish me luck on it.

Music, and it's Power to Me

I ask a lot of people what they like to listen to. The say anything. But when asked what they don't like, they can come up with something. I like everything though. It all depends on what and when and where though. And not everything always hits it off with me. Somethings better than others though.

The right song, and the right sound, and the right lyrics all in perfect place makes a massive impact. It is powerful, and I like to ... feed off it, for lack of a better word right now. I feel with the right song, I can overcome anything. I wish I could share each song, and each feeling attached, but I can't. People may not always like it, and they certainly wouldn't understand the significance. But if you have a good song worth sharing, SHARE IT! You never know what power it could have.

Welcome!

TL;DR (Too Long; Didn't Read)

I'm doing blogging again. This was for a school class in high school. I'm gonna do it for myself now. I'll keep all the old stuff, and I'm resurrecting what I've labeled as Amanalii Stories. Check em out. I'll do some Tl;Dr abridgments on them now and then.

All the old stuff is buried, so you may need to go digging if it's interesting. Most of the new stuff I'll put up may be simple for the most part. I'll get fancy later. So.. yeah. More to come. More to add to this.

Be nice. Be courteous. Be clean. Be grand. Have fun.

Fire It Up Again.

For all intents and purposes, I'll probably be firing up blogger again. Maybe posting some college papers on here for feedback sake, and not as a form of plagiarism  because it's for feedback and not really to call something my own. I hope none of you ever plagiarize something, and I don't condone it. Either way, we'll see where that goes. Also, share this link around to your new blogging buddies (I'm looking at you Bligert..).
Just FYI. Be Grand!